I haven’t been trustworthy, lying is a big problem that I need to fix. How can you form any relationship without trust? I’m an idiot and I have a lot of problems I need to work out. I can act all perfect, but I’m just a big mess looking to wreck everything nice around me. I don’t want to wreck this. I want to be the best I can be for her. I want to be the real me. What is the Beautiful Sea without its waves? I’m so glad we can work things out even at their worst. I never wanted to try SO hard to be the best for ANYONE in my whole life.